Dear Me.!
Dear Me, how have you been? It’s been so long since we last spoke.
I know, I have been prioritizing other people over you. I overlooked your happiness and satisfaction to other people who might not be with me later. Hence, we lost touch.
There are so many things that I wanted to share with you, unsaid feelings, daily issues that I have been dealing with, the crisis that I have gone through, the hardships that came my way and the heartbreaks that broke me too.
People usually say that it is easy to talk to that someone special and open your heart who loves you but what if I don’t have anyone for this? What if I am judged by everyone for feeling or thinking a certain way? What if the person who I thought to be special was just playing with my feelings and will break me again? What if I love to talk to that someone special but for them I am no one?
Is it easy to trust people in today’s world? Is it easy to talk and open our hearts in front of them without being judged or worse get used for their selfish motive?
Dear Me, you know the answers to all these questions and that’s why I feel closest and safest with you. Because come what may, you will stay with me and love me unconditionally. You will never judge me based on how I look, you will never leave me when I have no one to look around, you will always pick me whenever I fall, and you will stay with me until the end.
Dear Me, so much is happening around. It does bother me and when I start to think about it, I feel where am I and what am I doing? I want to be happy and make others happy, to spread smiles because I know the feeling of being hurt or demotivated but why is it that, while making others happy I somehow lose myself? Why are some people so selfish that they step on my naïve soul for their entertainment? But I think there is no light without darkness, so I do try to see the bigger picture and count my special people who are with me always.
Having labelled as an arrogant person, I tried hard to get along with people and make new friends but why is that some men get confused with my politeness? Why do they feel that I am easily available? this breaks my trust every time.
Well, how can I only talk about men. Even females aren’t friendly and seek for opportunities. With all this around I feel I am better off alone or with my limited friends and would rather call others just as someone I know.
Dear Me, you know my hardships and tough times, I still am fighting to rise above all odds every day and it bums me hard when I see people take each other for granted without knowing how it would affect the other person be it in professional or personal life. Do people realize how sad it is to use someone for their personal agenda?
I have been a victim of this so many times, it felt so disgusting when you give all your kindness and attention to someone or something and they disrespect you. It kills the souls without any noise.
Sometimes I feel so hard to smile hiding away all the miseries but then I say it to myself — Shhhhh No one cares.!
Dear Me, I can go on and on talking to you because you give me strength and love. I know I did keep you and your happiness last sometimes but gradually I understood that you are the one who I need to take care of the most, you are the one who deserves my love and affection the most, you are the one who I should make smile every single day.
I might take a wrong turn again in future prioritizing others over you, but I know you will guide me and bring me back to the correct path. Our relationship was formed when I opened my eyes for the first time, and you have been with me through thick and thin. I am sure that the further journey isn’t going to be easy, and I will have more heartbreaks and downfalls along with some happy moments but with having you by my side I will live and fight them all.
I may look alone but I have the bravest and purest soul with me.!
Take care, Will talk soon.!
